1. I am rebuilding, and there is no room for you. I hope, so selfishly, that you wish that there could be. You are being left behind regardless.

2. Harsh words and smiles are your trademarks. I cannot blame you but I can never stop myself. I know why you act like this. I cannot help it. I hate the way you are.

3. I realize, so suddenly, that you are fading from sight and mind. I’m so afraid of losing you and I smile at the prospect. I am disgusted with us both. Don’t leave me, go away. I’m sorry. You are becoming a stranger through no fault of your own.

4. You have no idea how much I care, even if I cannot comfort. I want you to understand, but you are not like me. I don’t think you can.

5. So many times I have seen you lose so much for so little, and I wish you could learn to live with yourself. I wonder, do your thoughts turn to me like mine turn to you?

6. Ridiculed for your pain, the black sheep always, I cannot find it in my heart to give you another chance.

7. I do not remember you. I have never missed you. I was so sure that you would die, alone but not lonely, and soon would be forgotten. Over simple herbs, we are brought together, both surprised. The hours pass with ease, and I wonder why I have ignored you. Now I am sure you will die before I remember you again.

8. You’re so close. Don’t give up now, or there will be no saving you.

9. To this day I don’t know what happened, but I miss you, and I relish the bright moments on country roads and think that it must all be a dream.

10. Sing for me. Your voice and your dancing are things of memory, and your spirited company is so much sweeter now that it is gone.

11. You are a wonderful person, and I can only envy you. Forgive me.